Frankly speaking, I have a gazillion thoughts swimming in my head now. I don't know why, everything was ok these past few days.. Or it's because of the rain? I love it when it rains at night, but yes it brought back some silly old life stories, or what they called memories. As a human, of course, I have a good memories that I treasure a lot, and bad memories that I always wish I could delete. As simple as pressing backspace, command+q, or alt f4 on your keyboards. I know most people do have the same thoughts too. But what if...let's say, what if, you pressed all those 'erasing' buttons, but someday, on an unfortunate day, you might need those memories back? As if you want to know that you were alive, that you were once fucked up, that you were once close to something that you might not believe in. To put in on a simple word, to know that you were actually more fragile or stronger than you think you were. That you know that you survived hell, or almost hell, in this crazy world. That you know that all people are mad, and no one was sane. Not even you. What if, you couldn't recall any of them?

The thought of keeping them inside makes you crazy, but the thought of losing it all is worse. Help.

I was laughing when he asked me, cos he said something like "You wanted a new iPOT right?"

You're indeed still important to me anwyay, I never hate you.

You were the only one that I really really cherish.

You were the only one that I never ever will regret for the rest of my life.

I know what we had wasn't 'love', but I believe we were close to that.

But that's the thing with you and me. That's the thing about us.

You were too sweet. You were too kind for me. You were too...everything.

And because you were, you were too good for me. And I was afraid.

Sometimes I wish I didn't end everything that we have. I know we'll still go strong.

But that's the thing...darling. You were too good for me, and I couldn't take it.

Even until now, although we had never speak again after that. You're important.

You still are important to me. Believe me, I'm totally being honest with you.

You were too sweet, having you in my dreams are depressing.. Totally depressing.

So do me one favour, won't you dear? Stay away from my dreams.

I need to move on.

iLuv i501 Headphone

A hugeass Fred Perry retro bag (rover brown/black/brown)

8GB iTouch

The Beatles Yellow Submarine Keychain

The Sims 3 World Adventures

And thousands of salmon nigiri, ice cream, and the people that I love :)